wee.
i wave good bye to Tuesday and shall start to welcome Wens-day (Wednesday).
hmm, recollecting what had been going on just now.
hmm, gota back results of the New South Wales Science Competetion.
totally suck. i'm starting to wonder if i am really no for Science
or am i just losing the grip on Science.
first of all, NSW is supposed to allow you to understand
what kinda of qualities you have in yourself
that is required to accomplish the paper.
but then again, i am better than some people at least.
since i am chosen to represent the class/school.

however i seem to have disappoint the teachers badly.
cause at the very start i knew that i wouldn't do well
since my results had been getting bad.
but yet the teachers still chose me,
i kinda felt bad about it.

argh.. its a struggle!!

then the Bio SPA was quite well done i suppose
rather easy. just like how the others were.
and i almost got killed by Ms Kavitha.
she shocked me all of the sudden by saying i didn't hand up my
Blood Donation speech.
but i clearly remembered i did, or i thought so.
luckily it turns out so.
hahas. coz for a moment i was stunned.
i was searching through my bag
if i had it with me, but then i saw a INCOMPLETE one.
thought i was doom for sure.
but i kept it from ms kavitha first.
then when i was searching again,
i found the marked and COMPLETED one!
so i was half correct after all, i did complete that assignment
but if you notice is half correct.
coz i told her that i got 19,
which turns out to be wrong, i got 18.
but whatever the case is.
that was only a rough estimation and also because i had got it mixed up
with the other paper we did not long too.

choir had been fine.
until the last part of it.
passing the keys to ms tang.
that took me at least half and hour i bet.
waited in the general office, seating there like some fool
waiting for her to get down.
but who knew, that had been a chance for me to retrieve my books
that i had left in the room.
which i only found out at the very last moment.
when i tried to ask ms tang for the keys,
she said it was locked up in the closet already.
so i have to do it tomorrow.
and i have my math tb inside, meaning i wouldn't be able to do my
Math homework. Darn it!
darn foolish and forgetful me.
it had started when i was frantically trying to search for my
blue Pilot G2 Pen around the room and the end.
whoever with no avail.
then all so confused and mad,
i had my books locked up in the room.
so it shall be staying in there till tomorrow recess time.
ms tang only have time to open the room for me to get my books.
Argh!!

that's so Cleristo.
when i was walking back home
i came to reflect on myself.
on the definition of Cleristo, always thinking of new better definitions you see,
and turns out i thought of 2 things i had to change.
the attitude to pick up litter along the path way
where ever i am.
AND the self discipline in me which would include lying.
i came to realised that i have been lying quite alot.
that's a truth, not a lie. Gosh!
never mind about that if you don't get the joke.
i seriously lack of SELF-DISCIPLINE!
maybe that's why i'm not "up" there.
there are things i wanna change
things i wanna do, however i lack of self-discipline.
i'm the kinda who needs people to enforce it in me
so as to have the temporary self-discipline in matters i guess.

that comes to talk about my struggle to save up money.
and i failed to do so.
i lack of the determination and self-discipline,
that is why i am still here blogging non-stop talking.
and why i am going to maple for awhile before i get to sleep.
haiz..
forgetful, disappointing, lack of self-discipline,
SOMEBODY, STOP ME!!

edit:
oh and GRATZ to Nan Hua High Choir on achieve GOLD B
at some international competition in Su Zhou.
achieving a 87.33% attaining as the category champion.
so i was telling Felicia that their choir would make a strong competitor for
my choir since they got a GOLD for that sort of major competition.
which would be equivalent to a Gold with Honors in SYF probably according to them.
it makes me wanna wack the (our) choir so badly to chase up with them
since they also had attain a Silver in the last SYF.
can't wait to meet up at the coming SYF next year.
Gotta buck up guys (and girls of BBSS Choir)!