5) put in my part to help choir get a GOLD

or at least mantain a SILVER for this year's SYF...

6) build my very own unique SCIENCE4FREAKS blogskin...

7) make more frens, means changing my attitude towards most ppl...
(this does not include HJ & gang...)

8) forget all bad & silly memories in 2006...

9) have 1000% confidence of getting into NUS High,

this means studying even harder...

10) make it to at least 2nd round of Youth Cup nxt year with my teammates...

11) better understanding of the Universe...

12) better understanding of my bros'

13) get into Top 10 for Class position for SA1 & SA2 n get top 20 for level position...

Thats' all for this year's, nEw yEaR ReSoLuTiOn (2007)
"
k how many have i fufilled
i've fufilled abit of 2.
part of 3.
completed 5.
completed 6.
some what 7, 8, 9, 11, 12
and completed half of 13.

now for year 2008...

New Year Resolution 2008

1) More Knowledge and the experience of the Truth

2) Become true to myself

3) Distinction for A & D Maths, Physics, Chem, Bio, History

4) make more good quality skins!!!

5) making more friends especially being in a new class

6) forget all unwanted memories in the past 2 years
in short, start afresh!

7) get into Top 10 in Class and thus if possible Top 20 in level agn!!

8) be a better person in all areas

9) resolve all unwanted misunderstandings

10) get more boys to join CHOIR!!!

k lesser Resolutions this year...
but it doesnt matter!!! haha!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

BOO
Early Happy New Year
managed to find a connection for me to use
coz sis is using now
if possible, i'll start with reflections then

January
the days of rather complicated scenes
where everything started in school rather off
and its a new beginning
i gave a try to make peace with the rest
hopefully that all will be better this year
as they saying goes, "with a good start, often all ends well."
or something like that
there was the sec 2 camp, well it turned out to be not bad
never forget Yi En.
(cheating in process by reading Jan's posts)
did a few things that i thought was rather stupid and dumb
but after all, i've learnt to grow up from all this...
i would say i was rather confused and emo-ing thru January
and soon got out of it in Feb....

February
the birth of the choir blog,
it started as http://choir-rox.blogspot.com
and turn to be http://bbss-choir.blogspot.com
hahas! i put in effort into it
i really did,
rather sad that i could only do up a skin for it
a few mths ago only
and it aint that nice to though =X
i'll do a better one nxt tym
who knows, there might be a good blog skinner
joinning choir nxt yr as sec 1? hahas
and there was the time when i was late for choir
hahas, had leo and shaun pay part of my cab fee =X
i guess i really asked them to blanja me for things too much le T.T
there was Poetry Slamming
hahas, loved it!!
i really love poetry!! hahas...
if only there was another Poetry Slamming session...
and there was visiting Ms Lim's house too!! hahas!!

March
ah of coz, by mistake i injured the chair, belinda
hahas. hit by basketball by mistake...
missed CSS2 too, hahas nxt tym maybe
ya, there was the trip to museum
bought a cup of Hot Chocolate for $5, uber EX!
there was also the Heats and actual Sports Day
bleah, bad exp...
not gonna take in track events le most probably

April
hmmm, SYF a memorable experience
a Silver we have now
is the burden we, sec2's, shall carry till the nxt SYF
for we aim for Gold!
it not imposs
coz nth is imposs as long as you put in your heart and soul!!
i was still maple-craze back then
but i aint now
coz maple are for kids =X hahas!!

May
oh ya, SA1 was fast
hahas, start early end early too
there was a few sessions of Study Group
amazingly having HJ with us
and there was a fight
broke my specs while fighting with Qi Jie
lucky i aint in the same class as him anymore
if not i may lose it and history may repeat itself, hahas...

June
rather much of Cold Corner where i kope from Wei meng
and much of still emo-ing posts
bleah, getting tired of reflecting...

(mom crapping noise to my ears....)

July
got a new bike from Caleb
that i havent cycled for ages.... lols...
ya, there was deathly hallows on the loose
but of coz i couldnt read it right out of the oven
but not far from the oven. hahas..
there was th Metamorphosis concert
hahas, not a bad exp
and a good chance for the rest
to see us in action.
a mth of much of conflicts in the class here an there too

August
there was the NDP Parade/Concert and AAC
the appearance of Guest
which ended well though
the trip to Science Center for Yogurt Making session
then there's the Mood Ring incident
MI's Basketball Competetion, in which i did rather bad
then there was the news of being selected in the WC2 Leadership Camp.

(yawns, getting boring...)

September
there was CA2 and NJRC which i missed
ya, and my present skin arrival
but it was before i edit
made by Ms Felicia Tan, hahas!
not forgetting the WC2 Leadership Camp
it was perfect, great, excellent!!
Knights of the R.T!!
and there was the Great Conflict
with fire buring everywhere
and i still havent managed to pin point the real culprit!!!

October
SA2 comes in and almost everything is in a mess
and the arrival of 10.5.07...
i've regret not studyin harder
but shall work much much harder next year!!
yup, the Artic Tale trip a nice show indeed...
there was Heartstring Day
for once we are working tgt rather well as a class... XD
subject combi selection exercise,
and a few days before school end
nasty things just have to happen...
there was the trip to NP and SIM with leo, qi and caleb
Pizza Hut trip by Ms Punitha, my soon to be form teacher
visit to RGS for Eng Prgm
and the great debate about me and the class

November (finally!!!)
spending times at home gaming most of the time
and there was the failed atempt of 6.1 outing T.T
the rise of my dream decoder blog, http://dream-unvealed.blogspot.com
BBQ'ed at WM's hse, an exp of how to set up a BBQ
a terrible one though
not forgeting CHOIR CAMP!!
muhaha!! it was fun!!
memorable exp indeed...

December (OMG!! i'm finishing!!)
but of coz there was the Choir Christmas Party
at Palm's Garden
and there was the part time job
and selling of tix with the help of sharon...
and the discovery of Doomsday!
Choir practices for nxt year's concert
and the failure to finish Isabel and the Choir Notice Board
but also the rise of the unique choir skin...
buying christmas gifts for the very first time...
whats more, for the girls in choir!!
and being known as Atheist
the idea of making Big Bang the skin
and latest...
the wedding of my 'second sis'...
which was rather fun and interesting
scenes that your would not get to see too
hahas!!

k finally im done...
and off to the next start on the nxt post...

bleah guess i havent post abt the timetable
i'm rather happy with the teachers for now
hopefully those teachers that i have not been taught by
would be rather nice
We have Ms Punitha and Ms Kavitha as Forms.
Mdm Nora for HY, that means A's all the way
haha, but the whole level is getting her for HY anw
k maybe except for e1,
they getting another teacher

well, lucky me
i'm not taking PGE
they having Ms Koh KP, hahas
then there's Ms Punitha too
WOO~
and Mdm Law for PC
WOO~
i'm freaking lucky this year i guess
this are good teachers
i have more reasons to push beyond my limits

the PLIT's in my class getting Mr Latiff
Maths we have we Goh PC
roy says its Mrs Goh
no idea who's that =P
Eng, Ms Kavitha
oh ya PB, Ms Dianah
SS Lau GM, think should be Mr ba
PE, Ms Sandra i think
forgive if i'm wrong
k off i go!!

As You Like It, Act I, Sc. II
The little foolery that wise men have makes a great show.

i felt nth when roy told me abt that news
coz after so many events
i guess this is nth much to compare
after all this, i guess i've really grown up quite alot
this would be my 200+10+5th post
time flies, i still can rmb the reason
why i first started to blog
it just flew into me...
212posts means i've missed out posting for many 364-212 days
although i started last year
but that time, i still cant post
should be around there la

the time table is out
and Oh My Gosh! Familiar faces
hahas, like Mdm Law, Ms Punitha etc
or thought mr chun is some how more nicer
and would be good to have a male teacher to teach us
well, its been decided already
what can i say.

lazy to touch my Big Bang skin
guess maybe until next year when i have time ba
its 2days to new year
and 3 days to school reopening
with new wonders to be amazed

there are really many things that can fly pass you
without you even noticing at times
things go without you even noticing
is a form of regretion
regret being not able to recollect them every other time...

k went to read my long ago post...
to recollect abit here and there...
k getting rather hungry
and i'll have to surrender the comp soon
coz sister wanna use
and i wont get to use it after this not until she's happy with it...
bleah nvm, it'll be trainning for next year
to end my dota craze.
blasting off!

*yawns*
boring day... not until night will there be fun
more relatives at my house
and my fav little cousin
but they went out to take MRT
went i was playing dota le
cant play with that little guy le...
*sigh*
BORING!!
kinda got bored of dota
soldier is even boring
especially when almost everyone has sniper
and yet you're carrying a rifle called AK-74
which pulls back everytime you shot
due to the impact it makes
and the aiming sucks big time.
anyone knows what can i do
though i know i have not done my chi hwk
and finish math...
but can any1 tell what else can i do!!
so that i wont die of boredoom in the next few days
before school reopens!!!

i can barely hold my anxiety for school reopen
there's new classmates, new classroom
new teacher and there's also Sec3 camp!!!
AHH~~
and the time table aint seem to be up,
like me take a look.
(BRB)
k its seems is not up still
but they are gonna soon
as the site is edited with 2008 in it.
k off i go!

i definitely dun have time to try finishing up with my skin
spending time trying to figure out,
what on earth is wrong with the navi's...
anw, got like 5hrs of slp today
as i was only able to fall asleep aft 2am last night
and woke up at around 7am today
ate a piece of bread
and rushed off to my godparent's house
after reaching i had a few mouthful of coffee
i went off down stairs to do my job as a car-door-man
lols, get what i do?
anw, i went up stairs with my 'brother-in-law' and his brothers
as they prepare themselves for the grand opening
(skip)
then after that i had some spare time to eat breakfast
had nasi lemak, then i left off with them to the house of the in-laws
where im asked to place the basket of flowers on the bed of the couple
right in the middle, they say.
(skip)
then went off to lebrador nature reserve
to have their wedding photos
as one of the representative
i had to be there la
so there would be shots of me and the couple too
(skip)

k shall go onto the main point
for my status as her half-brother
i get to receive extra packets from the couple
as i serve tea for them at the ceremony
so in total i got 4 red packets
the biggest one of them all had to be....
from my job as the open-the-car-door-for-me-man
hahas, k anw...i'm rather tired now le
tml is the dinner
which will be held at Sentosa
in one of the restaurant/hotel!
gotta blast!!!

bleah boring way to start a day if you ask me
ok, shall post ytd's trip to Orchard maybe another time
kinda lazy...
anw, they are very few...
gonna try to do up my new skin idea
cp, kellie, its not atheism
so dun freak out agn
its Big Bang...
although how much i would like to do one on atheism
but kinda diff to find related pics...
*yawns*
gonna have my hair cut later on
if not i wont have time to do it before the 28th
and then 27th also busy
gotta go back sch for choir's last practice of the year
so as to brush up our all boy's and all girl's piece
and also to do up the choir banner
k off i go to do my skin!!

k here to post before midnight
HOHOHO its Christmas in around 20 mins time
lols, expected i got chocolates from my uncle ah seng again
tomorrow shall go my first aunt's house
for Christmas, from afternoon till maybe 7+ ba
ya thats how it goes

planned to actually go visit mr dylan ng wei meng's hse just now
but than mr daryl ng chong chee slept till 5
so i and mr eddie chin chun hock
decided to give up the plan
all thanks to daryl

its Christmas in 18 mins time le...

i wan say MERRY CHRISTMAS TOO ALL!!
lols rather dumb if you ask me
and i have only one greeting since morning
rather sad
when i have lottsa of them last year
no idea why...
and i've no idea how am i gonna spam others
when i dun have much greetings that i can foward...

once again...

Merry Christmas to all!!

taken by surprise i shant have people ridiculing
i admit that i was wrong to start the fire
maybe apologies wont do you go enuf
but thats the line drawn ever since Atheists first appear
the difference between us is ever lasting...
dun mix us with Satan,
if i'm possesed by Satan, I'm a fellow Antichrist
then dun regret it...

so take my word, i treasure each and every friendship
dun make it look ugly...

k back to usual style of post
on my daily life after much bottled of anger...
k went to work part time for the first in my 14 years
easy money if you ask me
coz i just have to do abit here and there
nothing much at all
ok, guess i havent explained the early part

firstly...

eddie introduced me to this part time one day job
so what happen is, he was told by his Cabin counsellor
that there is a job for him
so eddie got me in too
so then what happen is this morning i got up
and left home at around 7.45am
then head for Boon Lay
there we met up with some others who shall be my mates for today
we then took 257 frm the interchange to the location
k rather boring section, CUT...

we arrived at this company,
then started to do our job
what are we suppose to do?
we are invited to help them prepare a buffet for 500++ workers of the company
k so after preparing
we had to of course help give out the food
so they came in a line and had their share of food
after the long queue
we get to eat the food too
lottsa variety and even though each item comes in small portions
they totalled up much, and definitely makes one full
then we also get to have ice-cream
haha! FOC of course...

then we get to watch the performance they held to
and then we clean up the area,
tada and there goes 4hrs
and i get $40 out of it

then before we seperated ways
i and eddie found out that the world sure is small
they are actually from CHC
hahs, well singapore aint big anyway...
i and eddie learnt that from the "boss"
when he said that there is gonna be a
christmas party at Expo tml
so no doubt with information i got from sources
i knew it had to be CHC...
k enuf of posting le, feeling all so weak
after releasing that stomach full of anger...

k maybe i did it some how over,
sadly..cp... you wont get to do what ever you wan tml
coz i aint going
ya, guess you got the news from mr. meanie
anyway,
i'm gonna re think it out thru
the so called, reflections/re-formatting
not how i think, but how i have been so eagerly
to "impress" myself with my new found word

you cant change me,
and i wont try to change you,
thus dont try to change me too
but like you said, i take you as a friend
and thus i shall not express what i like on this blog
expected something like this
when i first post things up
guess i'm still bad at coordinating what i think and what i say
meaning i do things without going thru my head
anyway, whether anot it pleases you..
I'm sorry.. to you, cp, kellie and any other who thosent like what you saw...

it meant alot to you,
but finding out thr truth means alot to me too...

Jesus said, "Let them be. Blind guides is what they are. If, then, a blind man guides a blind man, both will fall into a pit."Mat. 15:14

k here are the photos,
we played quite a few games ytd
lottsa fun
but barely anyone has interest in the punishments i guess
haha, icluding me thats is of course


can rmb when this photo was taken,
but its in the middle of the game, haha..


Shunyu, sitting there lookin so lonely, hahas,
and winnie telling sharon a joke
coz both of them was made to do a forfeit
that is to tell a joke to the rest of us....


then there was winnie too,
also telling a joke, shared the joke forfeit with sharon
at first was 2 each person
became 1 each as they shared it...


Leo caught off guard!! hahas!!
and there's roy looking all so dull, and sulking...


cant rmb clearly,
should be sharon explaining her joke again...
and there is shunyu looking all lonely...


Melina explainning the rules of the game,
we play this game whr everyone gets a card
where ace is the smallest
so the ones who gets the smallest cards around gets to do forfeit
but the thing is that the moment we get our cards
we have to place it on our forehead revealing it to others ONLY
and you can see what you've got
and then its to rotate around adding or subtracting forfeits


Hui shan laughing all so madly,
lols, and janice feeling rather dull too....

k thats all for today~~~

k back to post again
shall make it rather short
coz i'm rather tired
after the party just now...
it was really fun...
with all the interesting games
that builds up to my new collections of games
melina said that we should also plan it nxt yr
so that it becomes a tradition
that is we can find a location la
and that we have time to

after all
nxt yr december would means preparation for SYF 2009
and also would mean going overseas
both with my family and with choir
although its not confirmed yet

shall let photos taken at the party to do most of the talking
but aint posting them up today
coz i'm charging my phone
although i could have charge in on my com too
but it would be slower too
argh, feel so restless
shall post on today's event tml,
if i have the mood to still la...
but photos are no doubt...

k im finally here to post
after so long...
shall lets photos do the talking
for the last boys practice.









lottsa photos eh... lols

k next,
when to Bugis yesturday
just went ard looking for clothes and stuffs
in the end din buy anything
but had alot of food
hahs.. ate alot of food that day
money all spent on food
that's the way my family spends the money mostly on, food

after which today...
k went out early at ard 12++
went to my god-parents hse
had lunch and dinner there lols
watched Star Awards there too
anw, my 'sis' is getting married
so today is the giving up out of the cakes and stuffs
and a mini meal too
rather mini, coz all cooked..
so the actually wedding is on 28th
but the dinner is on 29th
at Sentosa!
lols, k gonna be the doorman
k for ppl who dunno what my job is
is to open the car door on that day
lols, for once and for all...
and i get red packet
k its not the first time i did it
just knew that i did it for all my 'sis'

the first one was for the second sis
i was very young back then
have no recollection at all man
was surprise when they told me just now

nxt was for the eldest sis
not long ago at all
only like a year or two ago

and now for the youngest
hahas... k i'm all ready for the red packet...
hahaha...
anw, i could use that money for some new year clothes..
k rather bored of posting le...
tada, its once again, Good Bye!

k had a practice session with the rest of the boys
things dun look very well
we finish half of the song only
and its very clear yet
hopefully ms yee might just give us till tues
or may just help us out to learn up this song
since we are like half done
had a short arguement among us though
coz thr's some of us who really
wanna give up on this song badly
but there are also ppl like me who wanna do our best first
and let ms yee do the rest

Isabel is a good song to do
we still have time
and so far we are doin rather well
completing half the song in a wk seems rather long
although we have ard 4 sessions tgt
and its only half done
but then its becoz some ppl arent thr and stuffs
so far the i still think everyone can still manage it
and jerome understand as least why its a bit sore when we sing
its coz our way we sing is not correct yet
as in the position the voice we put at is wrong
that kinda stuffs
and my voice is slightly improving
should it heal back fully on Monday
i should be able to blast abit more

we can build that quality
its just a matter if we wanna do it or not
it will take time
but i believe that we can take a step at a time
placing the voice at the right notes
is more impt now
being able to reach the note is much impt
rather den giving up
take it as a chance to learn and be better
i guess its diff for some of them to see it
only if ezra has lesser comments
and be more like jordon
willingness to give in the very best
is more impt
all ezra thinks is abt the reputation and stuff
he attends 3 out of 4 sessions
and yet he barely sang any thing yet
oh gracious, give him a sign!
a sign that he needs to listen more
and not be such a nuisance to have around!!
shall be posting up some pics maybe ltr or tml
from the practice ltr...
you'll notice some ppl missing
as they left slightly earlier or left long ago
who is under which catergory, you can sure guess...

finally wrapped up the presents too
hahas... cant wait for the 18th!! woo~~

k this the second post of the day
coz i've found some interesting quotes on the net
Shakespear~~

Quotes That Sweep You Off Your Feet
Shakespeare was considered a true romantic.
He portrayed love as a heady mix of passion, aggression,
despair, and determination. There are amorous love scenes
in many of his plays. If you are a romantic person,
you will appreciate the intensity of Shakespeare quotes.

Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene II
I am too bold, 'tis not to me she speaks:
Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven,
Having some business, do entreat her eyes
To twinkle in their spheres till they return.
What if her eyes were there, they in her head?
The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars,
As daylight doth a lamp; her eyes in heaven
Would through the airy region stream so bright
That birds would sing and think it were not night.
See, how she leans her cheek upon her hand!
O, that I were a glove upon that hand,
That I might touch that cheek!

Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene II
Then plainly know my heart's dear love is set
On the fair daughter of rich Capulet:
As mine on hers, so hers is set on mine;
And all combined, save what thou must combine
By holy marriage: when and where and how
We met, we woo'd and made exchange of vow,
I'll tell thee as we pass; but this I pray,
That thou consent to marry us to-day.

Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene 3
I pray thee, chide not; she whom I love now
Doth grace for grace and love for love allow;
The other did not so.

Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene 3
O, she knew well
Thy love did read by rote, that could not spell.
But come, young waverer, come go with me,
In one respect I'll thy assistant be;
For this alliance may so happy prove,
To turn your households' rancour to pure love.

Twelfth Night, Act III, Sc. I
Love sought is good, but given unsought is better.

Twelfth Night, Act II, Sc. III
Journeys end in lovers meeting,
Every wise man's son doth know.

Twelfth Night, Act I, Scene 1
O spirit of love, how quick and fresh art thou!
That, notwithstanding thy capacity
Receiveth as the sea, nought enters there,
Of what validity and pitch soever,
But falls into abatement and low price
Even in a minute! so full of shapes is fancy,
That it alone is high-fantastical.

k enuf of Romantic quotes..

Death Quotes That Tug Your Heart
Shakespeare's tragedies have some deeply moving death-quotes.
His quotations on death bring tears rolling down the cheeks.
The sadness in the quotes moves you so much that you feel
as though you have experienced a great loss.
Here is a page of Shakespeare death quotes.

A Midsummer Night's Dream, Act V, Sc. I
This passion, and the death of a dear friend,
would go near to make a man look sad.

Hamlet, Act V, Sc. II
This fell sergeant, death,
Is strict in his arrest.

Hamlet, Act II, Sc. II
They are the abstract and brief chronicles of the time:
after your death you were better have a bad epitaph
than their ill report while you live.

Julius Caesar, Act II, Sc. II
Cowards die many times before their deaths;
The valiant never taste of death but once.

Julius Caesar, Act II, Sc.II
When beggars die, there are no comets seen;
The heavens themselves blaze forth the death of princes.

King Henry IV. Part II, Act I, Sc. II
I were better to be eaten to death with a rust
than to be scoured to nothing with perpetual motion.

Macbeth, Act V, Sc. V
To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

The Words of the Bard
William Shakespeare has written many plays.
It is believed that some of his scripts were lost forever.
But, we know that Shakespeare wrote at least 36 plays, 154 sonnets, and 5 poems.
Each one of his works is considered a masterpiece.
It is no wonder that no playwright till date can match the brilliance of William Shakespeare.

A Midsummer Night's Dream, Act II, Sc. I
I'll put a girdle round about the earthIn forty minutes.

Antony and Cleopatra, Act II, Sc. II
Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale
Her infinite variety.

As You Like It, Act I, Sc. II
The little foolery that wise men have makes a great show.

As You Like It, Act V, Sc. I
The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool.

Hamlet, Act IV, Sc.V
We know what we are, but know not what we may be.

Hamlet, Act IV, Sc. V
You must wear your rue with a difference.
There 's a daisy; I would give you some violets, but they withered.

Julius Caesar, Act IV, Sc. III
The deep of night is crept upon our talk,And nature must obey necessity.

King Henry IV. Part I, Act II, Sc. III
Out of this nettle, danger, we pluck this flower, safety.

King Henry IV. Part II, Act I, Sc. II
Some smack of age in you, some relish of the saltness of time.

King John, Act III, Sc. IV
Life is as tedious as a twice-told tale
Vexing the dull ear of a drowsy man.

k these are sure good words, no doubt shakespear is still tip-top!

Shakespeare's Quotes Echo in Our Hearts
There is very little confirmed information available on the life of William Shakespeare. Shakespeare researchers have inferred with the help of little evidence
that Shakespeare was provided basic education at the town's grammar school.
However, researchers have also concluded that Shakespeare never attended
any university or institution of higher learning.
This lack of formal advanced education did not deter William Shakespeare
from establishing himself as the world's greatest playwright.
There is beauty in Shakespeare's language.
You can revel in the literary magic of these famous Shakespeare quotes.

King Lear Act II, Sc. IV
Famous Shakespeare Quotes
Necessity's sharp pinch!

All 's Well that Ends Well Act I, Sc. III
Famous Shakespeare Quotes
Service is no heritage.

k enuf of quotes to share le many more on the net
if wan go online find them yourselves... XD

k i've once more strenghten my defence
i shall make it thru this part of growing up
and not allow myself to go out of ctrl
thanks fel! your'e really a great friend haha!
a good listener in fact...
k shant boast to mucha bt this friend

so then ltr gonna go down to jermyn's hse
and leo is joinning us
missed leo much
cant wait to carry him up agn lols
see if he has grown much
and seems like i've changed to
im not as fit as i used to le
*sigh* can see that my chest muscles has flatten
wow...all my hardwork has gone to dust
thankful my mouses are still around
boring way to start a post dun you think
shant be emo at all
especially when it comes to l***
maybe i'll at most put up poems
ya, thats my limit...

k den with a tight budget
i bought gifts for quite a few ppl
and i've not finish DIY the ***** yet
wa craps, nvm still have time
and my math hwk!!! sharts!
well bought pens alrdy
so its just the time i nid to settle down to study le
got a few books from hui shan
for she feels that this assesments are useless
well, i'll like to try and see if it helps
i aint ready for nxt yr's challenge
but i'm prepared for the very worst!
vroom! see my thirst of knowledge rise!!!

changed new song
that i koped from fel's blog...
a very very nice love song indeed...

sigh feeling all lack of...
i really wanna l*** someone now...
i'm losing it, for goodness sake
why cant i hold it down anymore?!
this feeling is emo and is definitely no longer healthy
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!

"why do i love you, dont even want too
why do i love you like i do
like i always do....
wish you've told me
why did you have to leave
i love you like i do
like i always do..."

WHY~!!

sigh, what in the world is going on with me....

anw the juniors seems to be still much of a problem still
and roy here is acting like a fool
who knows no limits
lols...
kip trying to agitate me with his dumb comments XD
its a boring life i guess trying to keep to ones limits
the song Isabel seems to be much of another problem
ms yee split us into parts le
basically i'll be taking the lowest notes
except for when there is 4 parts
then i'll do the highest note ALONE.
k thats scary...
ms yee says i can do T1 or T2
up to me!!
haha thats gd news
my effort in making my voice range extend
its turning out to be good!
k there's a practice tml
with the boys
and my rabbits are on the loose!!!
presents are rdy le!!
wohoo!! rather cheapskate thou some may feel
but i'm not rich
i still feel that its the thought that counts
that's why all my presents have to be meaningfull
and shall be some what DIY kinda thing
will at least most
but there's 3 presents thats deco items
coz i'm limited by my tight budget...

so hopefully you guys who shall recieved them
wont despise them and dump them away!!~
k gotta blast!!

woo this is the 199th post!!
im way to go 200!!
k thats kinds dumb
went for choir early in the morning
to finish up the final touches
to the notice board
but in the end its not finish
damn the ezra
he's sadly sick again
and even though we managed to get the curtains
from his mom
by running all the way frm sch with roy
to his hse to pick it up
we barely have any ideas what to do with it
the curtain is barely curtains
when the curtains are not exactly done completely

i've to be prepared for the worst
that dear ezra may not come for thurs
practice too
so gotta think think of a way to finish the curtains in the shortest time
and to do them up by Thursday
other criteria includes for it to be fitting
nice, non-costly ya basically stuffs like that

then we learn a new song, "Some Where Out There"
ever since i screamed and almost suffocate myself,
and straining my throat to the limit
so as to sing the original song of "Because We Believe"
and "Isabel"
my throat turned rather abit sore
trying to hold and hit high notes
that's at least 3 octaves above your range
is totally ridiculous and tough
the sec 1s this year or rather sec 2s,
are hating the song
for its high notes and you have to give strong voices
at high notes, it takes a toll out of you...

so then after choir practice
went down to the bus stop
with zy, roy, shaun
then after calling my mom
as she told me that she isnt cooking for me
i had to find some to eat with
as i was about to ask shaun and the rest
if they wanna eat
i saw gd frens whom i thought have left after their BB
Jordan, Jin Shun and Jun Jia
we board 985 and headed for Lot 1
to eat lunch
we ate at LJS and bought 1 Fiery Chicken Meal each
talked thru out the journey and as we ate
its just fun to eat with them
thats something i rarely do with dick and the rest

hahs.. maybe coz i met jordan and the rest at secondary sch
whr i have more freedom
whr i have chance to eat outside aft sch or so
ya thus more meals i have are with jordan and the rest

jordan dyed his hair gold
but stupidly cut it away
as he was afraid the teacher's may catch
dumb right...
but then its still looks quite alright la
planned to go junjia's hse
but so as to not force him
we let him be
then we went back home seperately
and i slept right after i bath
damn tired...
k gotta blast! dinner is ready!!

i feel so helpless once again
is this truly what i'm lacking off?
what i'm hoping for?
is that what that can truly pull me down
and feel all so helpless?
its this all for real?
or just part of growing up?
will i be able to grow out of it?
there are so many questions
but who can answer them for me
i suppressed all this for soo long
and just for that single moment i let go
it release utmost pain in me...

there's no figure
in this sights
some one asked, if the answer was yes,
would i turn and look back
i dunno...
so many questions in me...
yet if Doomsday is true
i have 5 years time....

the only way is to breakthrough.....

rather much of pettiness aint it, lols
putting up those notes to show ppl...
firstly its for remeberance
sigh gonna go find a few rabbits later
before i head for zy's hse for practice
cheanpin here is rather disgust by the idea
of having curtains for the notice board
maybe her idea was more simple
but my idea was for it to be diff
so that people who saw it
would somehow be able to remember it better
i've taken note of the material
i aint gonna let it pick up dust
thats for sure
argh...
feeling all so bad after much argueing with cheanpin
a lil to unfriendly i think...
oh well,
i shall do my best to make it a sucess
and i never like to quit half way
especially when some one has given the word to help out
and when ms seah has given us the chance,
i'm not gonna dissapoint her...

k 2nd post of the day
coz just remembered something
gonna put up the notes i got from the LTC in October
gonna prove how big hearted am I to cheanpin...
and that i'm a real good guy
and once again,
such comments came from ppl who
knew me for 3days 2night
so that proves alot abt me a-ok~~
shall post them tml i guess
coz its on my desktop...
so this means i'm using laptop now...
and means i'm waiting to play dota...
while sis is still using!!!

its christmas soon
and i have only $19 from my dad
see if there's more before the 18th
so that i can buy some nice little presents for all
maybe hand-made would be good...
just gotta go check up Popular when i have the time..
ahh... christmas is just around the corner...
i have a bad feeling about this Christmas party some how
especially when it came out from Melina
saying that she's co-organiser
and that maria is helping out too
i get the feeling that it aint far from the fact that CHC is involve
and even just something thats gonna do with some thing i just dun really like
so maybe i would not go
see how it goes la...

so if any organisers are reading
like Melina
do take note that i dun really enjoy being drag into
the idea of christianity
so ya... try to avoid that...
ya dun mean any thing but i just dun like it you see

other than that...
im fine with having a christmas party
where choir is having
it would be nice if ms seah and ms tang could join us
need any help welcome to ask...

ya wether anot i'm going....
i'm gonna pull a few rabbits out of the hat
to show that i do care for each and everyone
be it from choir, my class and my fellow mates...
ya be sure of that...
and i'm a very very very nice person
i wont just becoz cheanpin said she
is deciding not to give us boys a christmas note
coz we might just throw it away
i'll leave that to be
and i'll show you what is being big hearted
lols... k thats a sneak preview
abt the coming plans for Christmas
but the chances are
my parents will be having a treat of our own too...
gotta blast!!

about you
You are a Leader

Your solid grounding in the practicalities of life,
along with your self-assuredness and your willingness
to appreciate new things make you a LEADER.

You're in touch with what is going on around you
and adept at remaining down-to-earth and logical.

Although you're detail-oriented,
this doesn't mean that you lose the big picture.

You tend to find beauty in form and efficiency,
as opposed to finding it in broad-based, abstract concepts.

Never one to pass on an adventure,
you're consistently seeking and finding new things,
even in your immediate surroundings.

Because of this eagerness to pursue new experiences,
you've learned a lot; your attention to detail means
that you gain a great deal from your adventures.

The intellectual curiosity that drives you leads
you to seek out causes of and reasons behind things.

Your confidence gives you the potential to take
your general awareness and channel it into leadership.

You're not set on one way of doing things,
and you often have the skills and persistence
to find innovative ways of facing challenges.

You are well-attuned to your talents, and can deal
with most problems that you face.

You prefer to have time to plan for things,
feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up
in the air until the last minute.

Generally, you believe that you control your life,
and that external forces only play a limited role in
determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

There's more to life than the practical -
take some time to daydream and explore the aesthetic sides of things.

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how you relate to others

You are Benevolent

You are a great person to interact with—understanding,
giving, and trusting—in a word, BENEVOLENT

You don't mind being in social situations,
as you feel comfortable enough with people to be yourself.

Your caring nature goes beyond a basic concern:
you take the time to understand the nuances
of people's situations before passing any sort of judgment.

You're a good listener, and even better at offering advice.

You're concerned with others at both an individual
and societal level—you sympathize with the plights
of troubled groups, and you can care about people you've never met.

Considering many different perspectives is something
at which you excel, and you appreciate that quality in others.

Other people's feelings are important to you,
and you're good at mediating disputes.

Because of your understanding and patience,
you tend to bring out the best in people.

If you want to be different:

You spend a lot of time taking care of others,
but don't forget to take care of yourself!

Sometimes you can get overcommitted, and when you
sacrifice spending time with those close to you,
it can make them feel unimportant.

YOz,
went back to school to do up the notice board
there was roy, shaun, zy, jermyn, jordon, hui shan and clara...
so we did up the centre of the 'stage'
and put up the pics agn,
the noticeboard is rather 'new' now
expect nth less from me, okay...
then all thats left is the curtains and the 'stage' flooring
ezra meant to say that we can done up everything today
and yet in the end he told zy
that the curtains arent ready until tuesday
everything came to sudden
that we almost lost count of our steps

ezra said that he's sick, sore throat...
from his church camp not long ago
then told us that he cant sing
so we'll have to do our own
and will pass us the score at 4pm
but he din turn up
we called him alot of times but he din answer
only till we could wait no longer
and went up to search for his house
luckily we came by a basketball court
and we were shouting ezra's name,
this boy who's ex-peihwa
told us that ezra leaves right down the road
ard 10-9 floor...
so then ezra also called up and found us
lucky day i guess

we then practice the new song, Isabel
which is very diff
coz of the high pitch in the song
rather diff for most of us
as we are rather just only baritones
meaning between bass and alto
rather disappointing to hear
from the self audition...
coz it would mean alot
to increase our vocal range
so as to be able to cope up with this song
but luckily we still have time
if its really that bad,
we can still afford to drop this song
and find another song to sing instead
we shall meet up agn on monday
maybe at jermyn's hse
to clean up the first part of the song
before we can even showcase it to ms yee
for her to decide on wether isit possible
for us to do this song at the concert next year
so we all have to buck up!!! jiayou!!

then came back home feeling abit of neck ache le
must be either to tired from today
all most probably,
coz i have been sleeping rather late this days
2-3am then will turn in, lolx...
today cannot that late le
maybe till 12-1am only
cannot afford to be sick...

and i havent touched my hwk yet
damn, have no idea what am i suppose to do for chi too
oh well, there's still hope for the chi hwk
but maths gotta start soon
if not i'm gonna be dead....

lols finally got ppl tag me
so sianz...
using other household's connection, SHHH =X
coz still have 33min till my turn to play the com...
connection in the area is rather bad lol
i guess not everyone has wireless
or even have an internet connection here

its been all rain since yesturday
it still hasnt stop,
mom heard the news said it will last for 2mths...
wth! looks like basketball training are gonna b rare...
almost lost the feeelings to go down to train with them
with all those mockings and stuff
its hard to get by critism
expecially for a person like me
i dunno, am i really that bad to understand?
some how i get use to things like this
coz its not something
that only started in secondary school years
it happen back when i was in primary school too
with all those name-calling
it just gets 'better' by the years

nth much to post,
gonna post on my dream decoder blog ltr
so for now, its Poet Clarence... XD

presenting two poems that i wrote at the Seminar a mth ago,

Appearance and Reality

Where appearance meets reality
the nature of two bends
the unreal behind appearances
that hides one true character
the reality that hides behind appearances
covered in the midst of shadows
where one is neither the other
and differs each other...

Untitled
The clock ticking along with the minutes
across the island, I stumbled
forcefully upon the seas. I am tired
of walking, an everlasting journey
comes to a rigid end.
Your wide wells, the grasp
of your clutchesin betwee, caught me here
half-dead, half struggling a work
of the silent ocean's wondering tides
held bacl, leaving markings carved in the air
and submiting the grounds as its own.
Thus this I am ingraved on, engraved in, and crave
myself in you. Bid farewell this moment every soul.
Indulged how thr crys, like a flock of owls,
hooting on the trees in the woods.
Reveal, unfold, release your soul to me, your dreams.
Look into my eyes. your life journal, and write
Your fears and cries
in you, shout out to me.
Your stumbles and silence
over you, kept a secret in me.

some other poems i got from the seminar
interesting ones in fact...

How To Be a Poet
by Wendell Berry

Make a place to sit down.
Sit down. Be quiet.
You must depend upon
affection, reading, knowledge,
skill - more of each
than you have - inspiration,
work, growing older, patience,
for patience joins time
to eternity. Any readers
who like your work,
doubt their judgement.

Breathe with unconditional breath
the unconditional air.
Shun electric wire.
Communicate slowly. Life
a three-dimensioned life;
sta away from screens.
Stay away from anything
that obscures the place it is in.
There are no unsacred places;
There are only sacred place
And desecrated places.

Leaf's Fall
by Paula Bentley

So,
Frost was
right then. The
gold cannot stay/
Crinkle of a world
sighs into a long slide
through blaze of echoing leaves.
Believe, know, each vein holds unfold
wonders and understand more than we
can see. Be silent, and watcj the leaf's fall.

the above poem, Leaf's Fall is an example of a ethree
where the word syllabus increases each line, like a triangle...

Introduction to Poetry
by Billy Collins

I ask thm to take a poem
and hold it up to the light
like a color slide
or press a ear against its hive.

I say drop a mouse into a poem
and watch him probe his way out,
or walk inside the poem's room
and feel the walls for a switch.

I want them to waterski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore.
But all they want to do
it tie the poem to a chair with rope
and torture a confession out of it.

They begin beating it with a hose
to find out what it really means.

Poem
by Alexander Pope

Sir, I admit your general rule
That every poet is a fool'
But you yourself may serve to show it;
That every fool is not a poet.

that should do it,
k gotta blast!

wondering if anyone is really reading my post
or evem visiting my blog... *sigh*
my blog has become rather souless
am i like talking to the net of nobody?
hopefully not,
please show me a sign that YOU are reading my posts
by taggging on my tagboard...

yesturday's trainning was rather tiring
i'm losing speed
because of excess dota-ing
i cant sprint like i use to,
speed has deeply decrease, i just know...
oh well hopefully
i still can get it back...

so after training,
we talked about doomsday
all because of dick aka daryl
for being too overly into this...
keep telling everyone about it
making a fuss about it
not saying that its wrong
but it was truly over done
den we found out that jasline
is a Buddhist who goes to church with his aunt, lolx
dave got rather mad
coz he kinda despise Christianity
further details shouldn't be talked about le
to prevent unnecessary misunderstandings...

ya guess thats a rather boring post eh,
hope that the previous post of two videos
regarding DoomsDay might interest you
if so, i'll be glad to share more of such wonders of the world...
be it videos or pictures...

PART I

PART II

havent been posting regularly as you can see
nothing much to post either
k lets see,
ytd went to Woodlands
to pass a tix to this Caucassian mix Japansese lady
around 20+ ba i think
no chio lolx...

then when back home straight le
eddie was rather worried
abt the remainnning tix
before we left off for the location
he told me that his aunt's fren
actually want the pair of tix
but since we have alrdy close the deal
with mariko (the lady)
its not nice of us to take back our words

then at night,
worrying how to settle the last tix
sharon suddenly told me there's another buyer
but there are some diff in determining the right venue
she says the buyer has a car
but there are places where she doesnt know how to go to
so in the end have to wait for her
to give us the venue...
so far sharon has not msg me abt it

next then came another call
from mariko
BUT, it wasnt mariko who answered
it was another lady's voice
it sounded much plesant
in the sense it belongs to a lady more pretty =X
k then she said she's mariko's fren
and that she wans the remaining tix
i was totally caught off guard la
have no idea what to do
but to tell her that i'll give her my reply tml asap
all eddie's fault
making me do all the work while he slacks lolz

but i dunno if their the same person...
so hopefully sharon would msg me asap...
k gotta blast den... hang on tight, its a tough ride!!