Before i do a reflection for the whole year...
there are things i must say, i have trying n trying to forget all this things that has been happenin around me, sad to say most did not accomplish...
this few days i have been thinking, how much confidence do i have of goin to nus high nxt year???
to tell the truth not alot, 60%...70%...
i really dunno, i chose this path n iu have no choice but to carry on, but i guess im feeling the stress nowadays... even thou i chose it on my own will, i felt the stress, the stress from within myself... i gave myself to much to handle sm how... i asked myself, what wod bcom of me if i fail to go to nus high???? i dun have an answer, i really knt tel what wod bcom of me then...
there are things for sure i'll lose my pride, i once believe very much that i can do it but as tym past...the stress builds up...i told everyone how confident m i of attainin the honour...
i called it my destiny, n by giving up my normal yet happy teen's life i chose to take the Path of The Genius... i gave up alot of things... Albert Einstien once said, to be a great phycisist, u have to travel to the ilogical/unsound to the logical/sound... if u ever step into the unsound, u'll understand what im experiencing rite now... confused with the facts, the clearer view of this universe u get, the more muffled it may seem... well that's a bit of the quantum theory, u'll nvr noe exactly what happens nxt... but applying the wave function equation u kn achieved the mosat possible result of the future... there may as well as over a thousand possiblilities what may happen nxt and yet... the theory oso says, every thing happen bcoz another thing happen...
its all related... well enough of science theory, sry abt it...that's what i call in the state of unsound... last word bef i continue, this oso means we might not have exisited in the first place, our existence is well u can say an accident... any slight changes before and slightly after the Big Bang and we might not not been here...

that's all for now and now for the Reflection...

January
i, Clarence came in to BBSS with no one... i had no frens hu have been posted here...
i onced asked, isit fated or isit a concidence im here???
i nvr wanted to came to this sch, as ive nvr visited this sch n its so far from my hse, yet if y isit fated that i have the affinty to add this sch on the posting list???
i came with no frens n only hpoe to know more frens so that at least i get to know new frens...
first day of sch, the team building games... i'll always rmb... i n caleb led the class to build that tower of straws...n there were we to withness its fall, jus bef the judges came round to chck n c...
sad n it was destoryed...

Febuary
Choir n Basketball became my 2 CCA's... nvr thot of joinin a choir yet i always lyk to sing...
there i was with my new fren leonard in the choir...
my relationship with the class fell... the class was jus too much, bullying the chinese 'cher around n i stood up for her, in the end...what i got was a class of enemies...

March
Choir had rehearsals for "Just a Single Voice" Concert.
This concert is with the WGS... met a new fren there, his called Richard...
he's a Malaysian... very humourous...
We(BBSS Choir) sang, "Flying Free", Just A Single Voice", "Windy Nights", "Colours of The Wind" & last but not least, "Close Every Door"...

April
Then came Annual Awards Ceremony, Choir performed two songs, Just a Single Voice n Flying Free... Me, Liling & Cheryl solo for the first part of the recording of Just A single voice lehx... hehe... :):):):):):):)
May
There was the 20th anniversary consert!!! Woah, too bad all performers din get to have good food.. all the others had 8-course meal lehx, but nid to pay $50 lahx...
we had packet dinner, at least it was free of charge... well as a performer u have to be prepared to make such sacrifices...
near the end of the month, we started having practices for SYF Opening Ceremony.
held at the National Outdoor Stadium... everyday at the stadium was unbearable, HOT!!!!!!!!!!
we had sm frens from Drama Club to join us for it this tym round...
packet lunch everyday at the stadium, cold mineral water everyday...COOLING...
its been quite awhile since i went there, sure was big...went one whole round to get cold drinks during the luch break...HA....refreshing...

June
June came, practices for the SYF Opening Ceremony were lyk almost everyday...
STUPID WEATHER, EVERYDAY SOO HOT, OUT IN THE OPEN SUN!!!!!
RARELY GOT ANY CLOUDS IN THE SKY LORX...
yet i din get very much tanned... dorts... neway thats y im called Xiao Bai wat... :)
there was one practice held at Pasir Ris Crest Secondary Sch, not bad...
one things for sure...
THEY GOT VERY BIG HALLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
confirm new sch that's y soo big...WGS oso...

July
1st july, SYF Opening Ceremony...
quite alot of fun though watching the parade... there were the Campus Superstars... Huang Zhi Yang n Teresa neway...the crowd gather around them as soon as they were within sights... the gal was sad lorx... hardly any ppl came forward to take pictures lorx...
many came up to Zhi Yang lorx... all the gals surrounded him lorx dorts... lyk super star lyk that dorts.. he is a campus superstar... :P

August
There was the National Day Parade, every practice we had, fans came... not to support us the sec one's lahx but the sec 2s' & 3s'...
Seniors hu have gratuated came too... not only too support us but oso too look after us... dont they look lyk baby care takers...dorts...
It was quite fun lahx, singing the new national day song and the previous... there was the Myraid of Colours too...

September
Of course the SA2 came, CCA's stopped...
n i that's when all those stupid images came in to place...
no comments...

October
as soon as the exams ended, choir started...
we were asked to give a guest performance with WGS at the 30th Nov Sing Out Concert...
woah!!! guest performance lehx... this means we get to use the VIP room lehx...hehe...
but of course that oso means more hardwork to be put in...
bad thing is, we only get to sing one song, "Gloria Festiva"...
Zheng yang went back China, Shaun took over as Sectional Leader...
n i continued to be my "man of the baritones"...hmm..dorts...

November
trainings continued every day even in the holidays... sad... dont we get ever get a proper break???
but of course it was worth it... the concert is held at SCH, Singapore Concert Hall...
swee hehx... neat... very grand and big lorx the concert hall...
the venue we aare having the concert must be at least 400 seaters lorx, or wasit lesser..-_-"
wadeva...
almost everyday got practice bef the concert sainzz...

December
finally we get to have a gd long break...had practice the last few days to prepare fro the SYF nxt year... short practices thou...
we were warned abt nong nong tym ago a batch of seniors did a dancing song got cop sia...
thats all for now... HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!!

Veri happy today, one more member in my study grp!!!!!!!!!
im one step closer to fufilling my dream...
after all those misery, i guess i sort them out again...i choose to take the path of the genius...
not goin to feel so miserable abt her anymore...
im goin to give up part of my normal yet happy teen's life for my dream...
i shall fufill my destiny and head my way to NUS High, and then i'll be another step closer to fufill my dream to reach the highest honours of physics...
to complete the GUT, Grand Unified Theory, and open the door to the Holy Grail of Physics to all mankind...
Stoopid maple sever chck now then complete...gtg maple...be back at nite...
that's for now...

IM SO COMFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY DUNT GET WHAT IS EXACTLY HAPPEN TO MY WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY DUNT NOE WHAT SHOD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHOD I CARRY ON WITH SMTHING THAT HAS ALREADY ENDED OR DO I END IT!!!!!!!
ITS TORTURING ME!!!!!! I STILL HAVE THE IMAGES FROM THE BEGINNING TILL NOW... ALL THOSE STUPID MEMORIES KEPT ON REPEATING IN MY BRAIN EVERY NITE!!!!!!!!!! I WAS FOOLISH...... IM LOST......

Pu Tong Peng You
dang ni shuo "I... I only wanna be your friend,"
zhuo ge peng you
wo zai ni xin zhong jiu shi "just a friend"....

Wu Ke Jiu Yao
Ni mei ci dui ze wo xiao
Ni de xiao ming ming you du yao
Wo kan zhe ni chu le shen hai dui diao le jie yao
ye xu ni chong lai mei gan jue dao
xi wang ni yong yuan gan jue bu dao
ai shang ni yue lai yue wu ke jiu yao...

Zi Lian
Wo cheng ren wo ai shang ni de mei
ni de lian he ni de mei
rang wo mian dui zi ji wu fa zai zi lian...

Can Fei
Ai ni xing dong bu bian
zhui bu shang ni de mei
(forget liao)
Li kai wo pian le shui
xiang cha diao ni de mei
cha bu diao
tong que gen ming xian
ni shuo ni yao de shi jie zai hen yuan
wo bu liao jie
fen shou jiu fen shou
bie ba ta shou de tai mei

wo xiang ge can fei
fei bu chu ni de shi jie
de bu dao yi dian an wei
wei she me ni ping ming hou tui
tui dao le bian jie que shi qu le zhi jue
rang wo jue de you xie lang bei

zai ai li can fei
fei de wo shang heng lei lei
lei dao wo bu xiang zai zui
zui pa ni tu ran yao wan hui
hui dao le yuan dian
yuan dian que you shi zhong dian
rang wo duo tong yi bian...

Yesturday nite at abt 9.30pm...
smting happen, MY LETTER TO 933FM WAS READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, i was soo happy!!!!! the song that i choose was Mei Li Mei Li Shen Dan...
dedicated to SVPS 6.1 '05, BBSS Choir members, Alumi, Seniors, te bie shi...
SO HAPPY n ELATED lorx!!!!!!!!!!!
N my com can finally run maple, but not bcoz of dick... i guess its because i forgotten to download directx that's y, so when i download it i k play liao...
ne way thats for this morning cya again...

Sad even though Dick says he has the solution to the problem, he could not find the disc...
i finally understand what was happening now, it has all ended...
for good, if not for her i wod not have known how to end all this...
i kind of knew the reason to all this but what i nid was more evidence, n i guess i found them oh all rite... leave me alone plz, n nvr turn back... for ur own good, n mine...
i dun wish to rmb all those silly memories any more... Silly me...
Albert Einstien's said that his greatest mistake in life was to ever put that cosmological constant in his equations in relativty...for now i guess mine wod have b saying all those stupid things...
being a genius is difficult, espicially when u had to play dumb in such circumstances...
knewing the results of what is goin to happen nxt, yet unable to put a stop or change it...
for once i can finally put 100%, no 1000% of consentration into pathing my way to NUS High, for now i have no regrets... putting down the burden on my shoulders...
Dun visit my blog dun visit lahx, y do u have to lie saying that ur com broke down...
i didnt lie to u when i said i was goin to malaysia, its bcoz of the rain, so my parents made the last minute decision to cancel the vist...neway u shod noe better than to ask me whether i wanna go or not...
FORGET IT, ITS NOT WOTH UR ATTENTION, GENIUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, death note is coming to cinemas soon...28 dec...
933 were giving out free tickets to watch death note 2 over the radio...
its held at GV Marina... sad thing is i didnt get to b one of the lucky ones...
how i wish to watch it, even though i have not watch, death note 1...
well too bad i guess, shui jiao wo zhe me chi cai da dian hua qiu dian tai...
who can i blame...

Andrew asked me to go for the christmas celebrations, organized by his church...
knewing how wod react he still ask me, sad... got quite a lesson from me...
scared him off, trying to tel him all the theories i could rmb that proves that this God doesnt exist...HaHa!!!

Well say no more, starting from the no-boundary theorem...
Relak, im not soo bad yet to treat ur to that, do i wanna kanna fine for starting a religious subjest online...no rite soo forget it.. if u wan hear nxt tym barh... call me n i'll tell u...

So, to those hu wish to get me to jion such events, FORGET IT...
if not dun say i nvr warn u, for i mean what i say...a whole list of theories saying...
I prefer to being known to bew a free thinker...Science!!!!!!!!!!
There u have a future phycisist...

"Its difficult to discuss the beginings of the Universe without mentioning the concepts of God. My work on the origins of the Universe is on the borderline between science n religion, but i try to stay on the scientific side of the border. Its quite possible that God acts in ways that cannot be described by scientific laws. But in that case one wod have to go by his own beliefs."
Stephen William Hawking.

Have a nice day, n MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
Santa Claus is cumin...to TOWN...

Oh Ya, actually i was suppose to go Malaysia on Sat till Tml, but bcoz of the heavy rain, felt it was very sianzzz....my parents decided to stay...
MERRY X'MAS to All...
jus now went to my uncle's hse for a christmas dinner, even though im not a christian...
i got a box of CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!
wat a day...phew...
Dick says he noes wat happen to my com n has the solution to solve it, so i'll b able to play maple tml... yeah!!!!
oh Ya, thnx to hui yun n jacelyn for being the first few to join my study grp...
i really wish it could b a sucess!!!! Hope those hu r reading this can understand how much this means to me... so again MERRY X'MAS!!!!!!!!!

SOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bought a new CPU at Sim Lim Square yesturday n Im ready to go online again, blog, msn woah!!!!
the sad thing is that im still unable to play maple for the time being...for some reasons that is...
forget it...N I LOST ALL MY MUSIC FILES!!!!!!
all the songs that i had to download from the web... sad... thank gooodness i have broadband can leave it there to download for as long as i lyk...well mayb??? :)
so far im havin fun with my new com n braodband service... high speed sia...
veri happy lorx.... pentium 4 dual core lehx... ^-^
so long for to day...
sad thing is that there is hardly anyone online today...
thats all... bye bye...
PS: rmb to read my anouncement, n if intrested, tag at the tag box...^-^

WARNING to HJ n gang:
do wat u do again n i'll banned u foreva...

blah, blah, blah, hj n his bastard gang of frens...
pathetic i must say...
ppl lyk them jus r too stupid enough...
soo scared till they dun even dare to leave their name down when they tag...
enough of them...seems lyk i jus have to banned them from tagging...
STUPID COM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
System lousy, even though my com meets the minimum requirements for that modem it jus doesn't works!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now i have to wait for that laptop to come, and its oli goin to b here nxt yr jan....
have to wait for a month for it...fed up...
how i wish to blog everyday and play maple with my frens sianzzz....
again boring holidays...

ANOUNCEMENT TO ALL:
I, Clarence, is sincerely asking for members to join my nxt year study group.
so as to help me and of course help eac other in ue results...
my study group will oli b on sciences n maths...
to tell the truth, is to help me acquire my skills for my upcoming nus high dsa exam...
so we will most probably be touching on, high lvl of sciences n maths too...
but mainly on Sec1 & @ sciences and maths...

Terms n Conditions
actually not veri much...
this study group is oli given to to groups...
My class, n of course my Previous Primary Sch Frens..
for Class Grp, they will most probably b held at the library...
n for Out side Sch grp, its at the CCK library...
this is not appicable to those not from my class...

I m sincerely wishing that u may help in my quest to nus high, n im sure for those in my class,
i hate to c me stay, soo this shod give u a reason to help me.. :)
most importantly, its better to taste the apple n share the taste then to ask someone to taste it for u n tel u how it taste rite... i wod b glad if ur could share me ur knowledge n i will do my part to share what i noe n help u in ur sciences n maths within my capabilities... we can therefore share n learn from eac other, n acquire more knoledge...

yours truly, Clarence Liu

many things have happen since my last post...
the concert is over..
n gues wat, looks like i may not b soo much of a genius aft all...
117 on phd certified iq test...
sianzzzzzz...long boring holidays....
written 4 songs, Ai Qing Zhen Li, Xue Hua, Qing Shi n Wan Fen Ji Mo...
nid a bit of editting thou...
things have really change...
i gettin broadband, maxonline12000, soon...20/12...
shiok... im left with a year till dsa to nus high comes...
glasses spoil, unable to continue with my studies, sianzzz...
that's a 4 the day i guess...
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