i lost composure just now
and seriously feel such major headaches..
i seriously wonder if i really have split personalities
or is it just due to my extra forgetfulness.
i've lost my anger..
but seriously i was mad for that time.
it came to me only that would be right.
but then they (what i said) aren't totally making no sense.
its just in a much exaggerated version.
maybe i can write essays well after all.. =.=

its rather stupid thinking back.
its crazy when you're always smiling to get angry,
but when they tell you people who are always happy
have high frequencies of changing moods,
its true.
looking at the posts,
its just don't really look like me.
now i'm bound no where to fall onto...

but i'm serious about talking those remarks.
if there's any unhappiness,
bring it upfront stop being such a lowly peasant and hide your name
to whomever that was.

I (white) ain't gonna bother what the shit your gonna do
just get off my back and stop barking like some stray dogs.
i know there are plenty down the streets near the old school campus.
you can join then if you want to.
almost got chased by them once the last time i venture down that road.
but i can't promise I (black) would not get back at you again.
for your sticking rather much like a sore thumb now indeed.

ya, rather amusing..
and the thing about the split personalities.
it ain't totally untrue.
but rather much, unrealistic.
but well, can't make any better description.
reminds me of Allelujah and Hallelujah.
"he has another harsher, unstable, and outright sadistic alter ego"
wonder what would my alter ego be called...
lols.. argh feels much better being able to smile.

Dissociative Identity Disorder, as defined by the American Psychiatric Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM), is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a condition in which a single person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment.[1] The diagnosis requires that at least two personalities routinely take control of the individual's behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness; in addition, symptoms cannot be due to substance abuse or medical condition. Earlier versions of the DSM named the condition multiple personality disorder (MPD) and the term is still used by the ICD-10. There is controversy around the existence, possible causes, appearance across cultures, and epidemiology of the condition.

Signs and symptoms

Individuals with DID demonstrate a variety of symptoms with wide fluctuations across time; functioning can vary from severe impairment in daily functioning to normal or high abilities. Symptoms can include:

* multiple mannerisms, attitudes and beliefs that are dissimilar to each other
* headaches and other body pains
* distortion or loss of subjective time
* depersonalization
* amnesia
* depression

Patients may experience an extremely broad array of other symptoms that resemble epilepsy, schizophrenia, anxiety, Mood disorders, posttraumatic stress, personality, and eating disorders, with frequent misdiagnoses and ineffective treatment. Patients may experience auditory hallucinations of the various alters conversing, and may be misdiagnosed as psychotic as a result. Changes in identity, loss of memory, and awaking in unexplained locations and situations often leads to chaotic personal lives.

k gotta go..
father's been waiting..impatiently..can't blame him..